I am typing with one hand because my pinky finger got gashed up nice and deep and now has matching stitches... sooo... yeah lol great stuff... never use it in a moving car though...
- Jer Bear with a messed up pinky :/
Wednesday, June 15, 2011
Tuesday, June 14, 2011
Kinda feeling like this lately again...
http://www.facebook.com/photo.php?fbid=1004590830759&set=a.1413080962757.2048375.1104510146&type=1&theater
This was a drawing I made a couple years ago... It really described how I felt then but I think now it is even more applicable...
I feel like from every which way there is advice on how I should live my life and desires for all sorts of various things pulling me in different directions... and I realize that most of it is for my good but some of it conflicts with other bits on different levels...
It's just kinda stressful to be thinking about it... and thus I have a couple options.
1. I ignore it all and do w/e the heck I want.
Can't do that. (morals, standards, idk)
2. I ignore most of it and pick and choose what I feel is most important or what I want more.
Makes me feel selfish and disrespectful.
3. I look at it all and see what is at the core of all of it and follow that.
Requires a lot of time, thinking, effort, etc... essentially a hassle. (maybe not worth all that time+effort)
4. I attempt to follow it all and try rediculously hard to balance it all and attempt to ignore any conflicts.
Lots and lots of stress.
5. I ask for some help.
I feel like I have no control over anything or like I'm not doing anything.
I'm not entirely sure what to choose... right now I guess I want to be able to do 4 and feel like I ought to do 3 and probably in reality need to do 5. But I think right now I'm just doing a mixture of 1 and 2.
So when does my stress-free summer break begin? *sigh*
Hope y'all are doing better than I am
- Jer Bear
This was a drawing I made a couple years ago... It really described how I felt then but I think now it is even more applicable...
I feel like from every which way there is advice on how I should live my life and desires for all sorts of various things pulling me in different directions... and I realize that most of it is for my good but some of it conflicts with other bits on different levels...
It's just kinda stressful to be thinking about it... and thus I have a couple options.
1. I ignore it all and do w/e the heck I want.
Can't do that. (morals, standards, idk)
2. I ignore most of it and pick and choose what I feel is most important or what I want more.
Makes me feel selfish and disrespectful.
3. I look at it all and see what is at the core of all of it and follow that.
Requires a lot of time, thinking, effort, etc... essentially a hassle. (maybe not worth all that time+effort)
4. I attempt to follow it all and try rediculously hard to balance it all and attempt to ignore any conflicts.
Lots and lots of stress.
5. I ask for some help.
I feel like I have no control over anything or like I'm not doing anything.
I'm not entirely sure what to choose... right now I guess I want to be able to do 4 and feel like I ought to do 3 and probably in reality need to do 5. But I think right now I'm just doing a mixture of 1 and 2.
So when does my stress-free summer break begin? *sigh*
Hope y'all are doing better than I am
- Jer Bear
Wednesday, June 8, 2011
X-Men and more...
X-Men: First Class was AWESOME! :]
As they always have, Marvel has once again entertained and delighted me with one of their movies.
Not only that, but tonight, hanging with friends was pretty awesome itself! Definitely gonna do more of that this summer hahaha. Makes me really want to reconsider my work status... I need to find a better job (less erratic and time-consuming) :/
Tuesday, June 7, 2011
Fixed Computer!
I have finally fixed my computer! Got a used laptop of the same model and just added my harddrive and swapped my screen bezel/holder :p. Looks pretty decent if I may say so myself!
Anywho now I got two hard drives so that's kinda cool. :]
On another note... work is crazy... Vector Marketing, at least the East Orlando Office, is hardcore. lol This summer I really got my work cut out for me.
This is a really short post... I'm going to fill some space for no reason....
yup...
yup lol
yeah...
ok good enough!
Time to sleep I think...
- JerBear
Anywho now I got two hard drives so that's kinda cool. :]
On another note... work is crazy... Vector Marketing, at least the East Orlando Office, is hardcore. lol This summer I really got my work cut out for me.
This is a really short post... I'm going to fill some space for no reason....
yup...
yup lol
yeah...
ok good enough!
Time to sleep I think...
- JerBear
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